Allright, Are you looking at this? Good. Cuz  Uncle moss is gonna have a Talk.


I Doubt my watchers are gonna see this or odds are, this won't  pertain to them, Which is great.


But First off.

Slow. The. fuck. Down.


Yes, Life sucks. Yes life seems like a neverending kick to the balls, You are alone, You are sad all the time. No one understands you, Insert other thing how life sucks,

Well Guess what.

Life does suck.






Period



No, Life is not always beautiful, It is not the happy fairy tail we all hope it be, and guess what we are not the protagonist.



No. We are not. we like to be, but we are no,t as much as we wanna be.


And son, I have been there and infact I am still there, I got alot of major stuff to sort out on my end, It is hard but what is that saying? Nothing worth having is easy?

That is the truth.


I am honestly tired of hearing about suicide, seeing suicide, Especially in my own age range. It hurts me to see people ending their lives before they even started. it is rough.

and Son, I have been there, I have been the one pushing my vehicle as fast I could go, Wishing something would just hit me and take me out. I know How it feels to be at the end of the rope, seeing that all options are nothing but suck. I have felt it all in my 19 and lord willing 20 years that I have been on this floating water sphere that we call earth.

I know what it feels to deal with depression, the good days and the bad days, I know this, it is hard and even the most trivial shit will send you though a relapse and your back to the side you hate, the side you wish could just go away, the side that makes you with you were happy again and  not have to worry about it.

But, jesus christ man

Life is like this and stopping yours ain't gonna do shit, you know why?

Because Life has its constant suck points.


Personally I have know 3 people, All who I considered good friends and would do anything for, die.

1. Was from  a mistake he made and he lost- drunk driving- A great guy and a good friend and one of the greatest people you ever meet and his pitfall was drinking and that one night he decided to drive home drunk and ended up losing his own life.  20 Years old.

2. Was just a death from left field, A good man and really healthy person, walked into his parents house and collapsed in front of them, My guys, My crew, tried their damnest yet it just wasn't meant to be. left behind a fiance and a little boy who will never see him again. 27 years old.


3. Was wrong place wrong time,  riding on his beloved Kawasaki sport ATV at a track when a dirt-bike collided into him, Had numerous injuries which included a cracked vertebrae, a collapsed lung, Subdural head bleed, brain swelling and was in a coma. Was on a ventilator for a week before succumbing to his injuries.  19 years old.


and you know what,  That is just what I know personally, and think about it Son, There around millions more people and families that have dealt or witness these tragedies. I know of one family that lost a 4 year old to cancer. 4 Fucking years old.


and these eyes in my short time have seen 7 deaths and worked 2 codes.


And that is just from a rookie with less than a year on the department.



Life sucks son, It is hard, But it is hardly worth taking your own life. get help, Get blood-work done if you need to, like I had to to narrow what is causing my problem.  If you need be, get admitted somewhere and seek professional help.



I am sorry for this long winded journal and filled with errors but I just was motivated to say something, I could say more if I fixed my points better but I was angry and had to type.



" A permanent solution to a temporary problem is no way to solve the equation of life"